Wanna Die?

Paul McCartney and Ringo Starr are the only 2 remaining Beatles left (I wonder if the original member before Ringo got into the band was still alive). I feel kinda bad because my brother and I placed a bet on which of the two will die first – and what a type of bet is that! Not that we wanted them to die anytime soon, but there’s no harm in it I guess. He picked Paul to die first, and since Ringo was the only choice (btw he’s my favorite Beatle) the bet is on. Php 100 if they die by 2006 and it increases Php 100 every succeeding year they survive alive.

Nothing’s wrong in dying. Sometimes I wanted to die, too. But when I think of all the things I still wanted to do in my life, I sit back and think again. I’d still want to have a family, a career, a good life. I still would want to know the future ahead of me. What could’ve been? And I still wonder how will I die? Sickness? Accident? Crime? Old age? Sometimes I imagine myself falling off from a tall building or being stabbed by a murderer. Haha! But I think I’d go for death due to sickness.

I’m not afraid of dying; the only thing I am afraid of is that I might go to hell. I’ve not been a very good boy these past few years and I think I haven’t done enough things to repent. I strongly believe in religion though sometimes I take it for granted.

These few days are depressing. I think I am in a state of a mild depression for things I can only explain to myself. At the end of the day, life is beautiful.

Etch-a-Sketch

After I seemingly let 5 years pass, that I was unconsciously focused myself on other things, I believe that I am ready to go back to my old-time favorite hobby: drawing. I am not much of a great artist, I just like to draw. My sketches seem lifeless though, but they’re not bad. It’s just that I don’t know how to properly shadow my sketches, draw in full detail nor use oil pastels and crayon magic. But drawing has always been my first love, and the last time I remembered that I seriously drew sketches was way back in first year college, when I drew Cannonball, Psylocke and Sauron. Apparently these sketches were still with me, and they were the best yet I can offer. It’s just that the Hype of watching X-3 made me missed the old times. I recalled illustrating Jollibee mascots, X-Men and beautiful women. I wish I could really learn the techniques of sketching, but I know it’s a little bit late.

Basta!

One of these days (and hopefully soon enough) I will get back to sketching.

Circles Round The Moon

I just want to share one of my favorite songs way back in ’02 (Can you guess who the singer is without checking on the web?):

I get a feeling morning and evening/Baby when you get home/I got a vision, my superstitions gone/Baby I’m shining you got me flying/Throw me a silver line/Pull me down slowly, kiss me and hold me tight/ We can’t hide it/We can’t fight it/Just to feel as you believe/(Chorus) I put a spell on my heart for ya/Wishin’ on a little star for ya/Kinda magic in everything we do/I’d live and I’d die for ya/Get a little bit high for ya/Forever couldn’t come too soon/Running circles round the moon//I’m moving over, you’re getting closer/Heaven is in your eyes/Mystical wonder flowing into our lives/Spirits are waking to the love that we’re making/Angels are on our side/Watching and waiting, catching the joy we ride/(Chorus)//Out of my mind/Chasing circles of love, just to find/Every lifetime/It’s always you/(Chorus)//

Cute ng lyrics no? Magical…


Self-spoiler: I had myself wrote a couple of rhymes and I turn several into songs, adding tunes to them which is just stuck on my mind (‘coz I don’t know how to transmute them into notes) and I did post one of them right in this blog, when this little online journal was just starting. If you guys want to you can check in out on my earlier posts, and don’t ask me whose the inspiration behind, it’s not autobiographical.

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Today i turn 23, and my mutant powers started to manifest. i have to wear blue sunglasses with UV protection because i cannot control my optic energy blasters coming out out my eyes. i also found out that i can also fly, teleport through shadows, and i also gained the powers of telepathy and telekinesis. i am still adjusting to my newfound powers though, and it may take a while before i can finally control them...


*** i have watched the x-men 3 for the fourth time, and it's still fantastic. the best movie i've watched in years. i must say that director brett ratner must have did a very good job. applauses...